The silent symphony of chaos.


Do you ever feel crowded in an empty room, with thoughts glistening in your head like sparkling diamonds?
When words flash in front of your eyes, as if you were out of the matrix, out of this world. As if you can see holograms of your desires tangible yet so far.
And you can’t make sense of anything, neither letters nor ideas. Lining them up in the hopes of drawing a picture framed ideology. Staring at your bedroom wall, feeling your chambers drown with words and meanings.

And you run!
And they chase you!
But you can out run it all, for weeks and months; why not years and lifetimes… What’s so shameful in running?

And there are those moments, when you’re entrapped in a crowded room. People yell and scream, thinking their ideas will be louder. The shout to be heard. They shout, but no one cares. The voices grow bigger. This chaotic mess of anger and frustration, even laughter and exhilaration.

Breath in, breath in deep…

Can you hear that?
Silence in the middle of a chaotic rumble. A symphony of peace, a still picture. And you smile. You think you’re completely mad. But you smile anyway, because you’ve found serenity in the midst of all the noisy thoughts.

And I finish sipping my lemonade, reading my book.

“Seriously Rita, how can you even focus”

“I donno… Guess I’m selfish that way”

Recommended playlist:
Breathe in breathe out – Matt Kearney
Robbie’s Note – Dario Marianelli

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5 thoughts on “The silent symphony of chaos.

  1. Yes, always crowded in that room of thoughts! When I try to run away is when they chase me more. At times I surrender and let them take me away; other times I try to fight, but they are stronger.
    It hurts! It hurts a lot especailly when you know you must tell someone something but you should wait for the right moment to speak; so those thoughts keep chasing you wherever you go. It takes a word, a smell, a sound, a song to take you back to that room of thoughts and trap you in.
    Thanks a lot Rita for sharing this post with us. You hit it right!

    1. Thank you for your very kind words and support.

      @emilie I’ve been reading your blog for quite sometime and always find the words you use very elequant and filled with emotion. Never know what quite to say. But always leave with a good feeling.

  2. Its in those chaotic moments that peace lights up with all its glory. Once we catch it, we hold on to it and cherish its presence everything else falls into place. A moment, in the present, a focus on what matters most.
    Spot on! :)

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